Jr.'s Wedding day
I haven't updated this site for a long time. My lamentations about not seeing my son were resolved a year ago and I witnessed his marrying the angel that brought us back together on Saturday.I've tried really hard to let go of the pain you can read here. I almost made it through the wedding without the pain of years past enveloping me. Almost
everyone had left when the words of the mother son dance got to me and
I had to leave the room sobbing so bad I needed my inhaler. You know,
I've busted my hump to put the pain behind me and to let it all go but
being with the Tripletts was too much and the pain came back and the
lyrics of "If Tomorrow Never Comes" just reminded me of so much I just
couldn't contain myself. I was happy and I was really letting go but
all those tears just came gushing out. The harder I tried to control
it the worse it got.
So anyway that was in the last 30 minutes.
Eddie went at 8 to prep for the wedding. I followed him with the boys
after 9 then went to get something to make the cake base look pretty
at 10. After shopping I split my pants and had to come home to fix
them. I was down to the wire getting ready for the wedding. It
seemed like they were waiting on me. Everyone was seated.
Sr. set in the front pew with his baby boy. His wife was in the
wedding as was his daughter and middle boy. I was behind him with
Eddie, my boys, Mother and Jeffy's Grandpa Jim. then the rest of the
Triplett's were behind us.
You know I didn't actually really sit in my place. I took pictures
during the ceremony instead. I paid attention to the ceremony though.
It was a beautiful ceremony.
the pictures afterward were great. Sr.'s niece used my camera to take shots so I could be in them. She did a fabulous job.
We ate and had the cake. I told Kelli to shove it up his nose and she
tried, he did the same. After most of the guests left we danced.
Kelli and Jeff together, then Eddie and I plus Kelli's parents joined
in. Then Shane cut in on us and I danced with him. Kelli and her dad
did a Father daughter dance and then Jeffy played a dance specifically
for just he and I. I lost it.
We packed it all in forgetting things we left in the fridges.
Last night Eddie and I were up until 2:30 working on the cake after he
laid out all the turkey, ham, cheeses, tomato slices, lettuce, olives
and pickles.
I may never make a fondant covered cake again. it was pretty but
cutting through it is hard. the cake was great though. It held it's
flavor and moisture really well. I think I'm through eating so much
cake though. I have a trial cake and the bottom layer of the other
cake left over.
We made the punch at the last minute before the reception. It was
cool to watch the kool-aid mix make the 7-up bubble so much. I
expected the sherbet to be the bubbling part not the Kool-aid.
I had a blast despite my break down.
I'm more embarrassed about it than anything. I'm thankful that I have an understanding husband and a great daughter-in-law to help Jr. understand how I could have been so happy and broke down like that.
Here's what it was in all honesty. "If Tomorrow Never Comes" by Garth Brooks has this line
"If tomorrow never comes will she know how much I loved her? Did I try in every way to show her every day that she's my only one?" I change the words in context to my oldest son. Then the thoughts came in to my head no you couldn't show him every day because they pushed you out of his life and would have preferred that you never come back....plus they lied to him and said "if she really loved you she would be here" for this that or the other Then I couldn't control my tears.
But I was there.... I was ready to hold hands, clean up vomit, and cheer when they got married or anything else they needed within my power this past year.
here's the other thing... I would adopt Sr.'s wife and her kids in a heartbeat. I love her mom, I think her sister is cool and if they would let me ohhhh I would spoil them so much. I have some of that in the works already too.
here is where I lay the bad feelings to rest. Start Celebrating the fact that there's a huge family to enjoy and ONLY RUN FROM THE DANCE FLOOR FOR MY INHALER BECAUSE I'VE BOOGIED SO MUCH I CAN'T CATCH MY BREATH OR GET TO LAUGHING SO HARD I INHALED MY DRINK.
posted by Debbysewn @ 11:55 PM
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