Living on West Tulsa Time

I feel this way today

posted by Debbysewn @ 11:44 AM 0 comments

Our first School Halloween Parties

This morning I dropped off Eddie at Tulsa Community College to get the paperwork to teach a class tomorrow. Then I went to come and play. They had a parade of costumes the come and play kids went first. Tiger was not too keen on walking across the stage so I followed him. I didn't get any pictures phooey. Then I waited to see G-man. His class went last so it was a long wait. I was so happy. I'm still so happy, I'm crying. Oh the things I missed when I lost Jeffy.

Any way we brought home so much candy that I just let them have it. They need lunch too but there was nooooo way I could have that fight today. Tiger is doing pretty well opening the candy he wants. G-man asks me to do it. I know he should do it on his own but it's an opportunity to kiss him and tell him I love him. I realized last night that we don't get that much any more.

posted by Debbysewn @ 7:44 AM 0 comments

I finished my lapghan from Grandma's sweater jacket

I'm feeling better now that we have settled into a routine.

Well my place is a wreck today. I have fabric every where to make costumes for parties tomorrow. I had all ready made 2 costumes and G-man's is too small and Tiger's allergic to it and the one I made for him so I'm starting over. We picked out and laundered the material last night I'll cut out the patterns today during naptime and then start sewing tonight when Eddie is home.

I've been crocheting during the time I surrender my computer to G-man. I've completed this:

the squares with the x pattern on them were created by my grandmother. I just put them together and put the black trim around them
.
right now I'm working on a baby version of this:
.

from this pattern
.

It's going to a niece for christmas.

Eddie will be teaching a Mat cutting class Saturdays at the Community College through November. That will be nice for the extra money--He can get his dl back for Santa visits.

posted by Debbysewn @ 11:25 AM 0 comments

I took Eddie to court today.

You know me I worried that he would have to do jail time or community service, would have a suspended license for another few months or years. Nope, just a fine and that's set up on payments starting next month. Phew. I said a prayer of thanks on the way home.

I'm so stressed out. I need chocolate and exercise. Time to do the latter.

Yesterday was a busy day for us as well. I took G-man to school and came home to crack a whip at Eddie. He was supposed to work on the website for his shop during nap time. He was putting it off until yesterday afternoon forgetting that he would not be here. So I watched the CBS morning show and crocheted while he fixed up the website. We then started preparing for the busy day. Fixed lunch for eating on the run, packed snacks and extra drinks. When G-man got off the bus he was shocked to be loaded up in the truck to start his appointments. At noon we were supposed to see Tammy the psychologist. Unfortunatley she was in court. I did get 20 minutes of uninterupted crochet time in. We headed over to see LouAnn and Caroline the Occupational and speech therapists. We spent 2 hours there for 2- 45 minute appointments. G-man did great with motivation that daddy was watching him not me. I got to crochet until I ran out of yarn. I knew I should have packed another skein. I did pick up another project to work on but it's complex and makes it hard to do and watch out for Tiger. Afterward we went to the pastor's house. They have pecan trees and lost 2 in the last year or so. The harvesters take down the bad tree and plant a new one but they leave the cut wood stacked in the back 40 as Brother Foster puts it. He and the family no longer have a fireplace so they don't need the wood. We picked up a bed full and a used chainsaw. The Huskvarna runs but the chain would not cut butter. I bought Eddie a sharpening set for his Dremel way back when, once we find it we should be fine. I figure we might get a rick a week from somewhere.

Eddie started a fire Sunday night. Boy did the livingroom heat up fast. We learned a few things. the doors to the "stove" insert have vents. The fire can be controlled by adjusting the vents. However we didn't know this and just shut the doors. Eddie was shocked when the fire went out. We smothered it. He quickly opened the door and woosh the fire sprang back to life. We also have a blower to fan the heat. I turned it on just to get a feel for it. Ick that stunk. It really needs to be serviced alas that will have to wait for another day. I need to get cracking on costumes for the boys. G-man wants to be a ghost. I said Tiger was going to be a tiger but now I'm not so sure. I can't find my orange material. I probably cut it up for quilt squares, lol. that's my project for the day to find the orange material.

posted by Debbysewn @ 8:42 AM 0 comments

Gathering ideas about birthday

Ambrosia of Tulsa Moms and Baby play group made this cake for her son's 1st birthday.




Here's what she said about it:

Here are some pics of Connor's 1st Birthday cake (that he won't even eat). The chicken and cow are candles, but everything else is home made. The pigs and corn are royal icing; the barn is solid pound cake, the roof and road are crushed up graham crakers. The grass is homemade butter cream icing. I sure hope everyone likes it. Not sure I ever want to bake again! lol

She's doing a candy hunt in a haystack today too. I thought that would be a great idea for the boys too. We could do in in the garage if we have snow or in the garden if we have some warmth.

posted by Debbysewn @ 8:14 AM 0 comments

Firewood scavenger hunt

We filled the bed with wood we found along the side of the road up Union. Ed says he thinks that they were also clearing along the access road to the training center. We came up Union and they've got a stack on the walking trail too. I guess we would need a wagon on a 4 wheeler to get that or we could toss it over the fence to the highway and load the truck from there.

I need to get out to the church. It's in a pecan grove and they've taken down 2 trees out there. We'll probably do that Monday. Our pastor has offered us a chainsaw. It looks like we're going to need the wood this winter since the gas prices will be so high.

The boys had a blast listening to the thud of the chunks. Unfortunately G-man didn't get to go to the bathroom and left a puddle in his car seat. Welp. Shame on me for not thinking about his needs after giving him another cup of Kool-aid in the truck.

I'll be going out after bed time to unload it.

posted by Debbysewn @ 7:42 PM 0 comments

oooowwwie

I smashed my index finger in the door of the truck. I got the fattest part, It's really swollen but not broken. Today I cannot bend it and it's even more swollen. I can't find a job this way.

posted by Debbysewn @ 7:32 AM 0 comments

I'm feeling so lost

I told my pastor that I always felt that God had my back. Then an hour later I was screaming "why doesn't anyone listen to me" Okay, so the 4 year old doesn't have the best comprehension of everything I say. But still I think his brain is in upside down. I told him don't put that straw in his mouth and it goes right in there. ickkkkkkkkk. The cat had been chewing on it. Then I focus on the rules I set that aren't followed. The biggest one was the cat doesn't come in to play unless the livingroom has been cleaned and all the toys are put away and the dishes are in the sink. There's no chance the kids will put stuff in their mouths after the cat has chewed it if it's not there to be chewed on. I snuck off to have one bubble bath in the first 6 months we have been here.

I'm so stressed out. Sometimes going to church eases the stress. Today it did not. It gave me a few tools and ideas but I have so many questions that I just can't find answers for.

posted by Debbysewn @ 2:40 PM 0 comments

What the psychologist said about G-man and the bus

It's going to be a long drawn out ordeal to get him to open up about what happened. Once She gets an indication of what has happened then the psychologist will get the authorities involved. It could happen at the next appointment or it may take weeks/months. She did say that after a certain time if she has introduced the subject of being molested a couple of times and he doesn't show any interest in discussing it she will go ahead and let us know that it either didn't happen or he's repressed it so much that we won't get it to surface. She will teach us how to handle the behaviors that have surfaced wheter they are molestation based or just cause he felt abandoned. I really thought this was going to be a cut and dried session. She would talk to me then talk to G-man then say, yes he needs to be seen cause his behavior indicates he was molested. I just didn't realize that life isn't like the movies. It's going to take a long time to get the answer.

She did sympathize with our decision to transport him to school and allow him to ride the bus home where there are 2 adults. She did suggest that we do not discuss it aloud while he is in the room because I noticed that he gets more agitated when we do. She'll teach us how to handle the increased agitation.

posted by Debbysewn @ 7:56 AM 0 comments

Well I met with the superintendent this morning

I haven't been able to put into words the level of anger and fear, I have felt about this all day.

First he set up the appointment but claims that I didn't confirm it. So he had a meeting that he had to steal time away from. Then we had to wait for the bus supervisor to arrive. They both reitterated all the stuff that I've read and heard quite a few times before. Finally I got to talk and asked the question that has been burning in my mind for a week. Did they pull the tape from G-man's bus and review it? I got told that they did and the tape did not play---it was defective. I almost threw up. Then they said the tapes are only recording when the bus is running. I told them I got my answer. They cannot verify that the driver did not fondle, intimidate or in any way harm my son in that unaccounted hour. I told them that I felt like this incident was being minimalized. They both said they considered themselves huge child advocates and they were sorry but would stand by all that we were told. I told them we were taking G-man to see a therapist to identify the possibility G-man was harmed. The meeting was over then. If I wasn't going to take their word then they had nothing more to say. They did offer one more thing to comfort me. The bus that picks the kids up at the other school now has to sound off that the empty buses are checked before she leaves. With this new security measure in place G-man is welcome to rejoin the babies in the neighborhood on the bus.

I'm going to continue to take him while I need to take Eddie to work as well. I did tell them that G-man would take the bus occassionally this year. Maybe next year he can get back on the morning bus.

Why can't I stop worrying about this? Why do I always imagine the worst? The "What if"'s are killing me.

posted by Debbysewn @ 7:53 AM 0 comments