I'm just so grossed out tonight
My Aunt sent me this disgusting picture from some one's photoshop effors attached to an email about breast infections. I knew it was a fake right away. If anything attacked a person's breast there would be swelling and blood. I'm just so weirded out over this that I can't get it out of my mind. It's like seeing your grandma naked.
I hate things like that because they stick in my subconcious and twists into my dreams and stuff. I do this a lot with the shows I watched. I have a large enough imagination without seeing stupid stuff on line.
wanna see? http://www.snopes.com/photos/medical/breastrash.asp
I'm sick again
I caught another bug while I was out I guess or the medicine I took last night did a real number on my tummy. I don't know.
I went to bed last night feeling terrible
I awoke feeling worse. I had an altercation with G-man yesterday in the pool. So I've carried the frustration about him disobeying me/disrespecting me/wanting to make me miserable all evening.
I guess we need to get back to basics again. For now, I'm hungry.
missing feelings
I'm just feeling this big hole in my life this week. I can't put my finger on it. I know I'm lacking a lot of things and maybe the lack of funds is making me feel incomplete.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just missing people that are gone. But I'm really sad. I think I need a good cry.
The boys played with the new kids across the street today. Their accents were a little hard to understand but they were so cute. I pulled out a project just in time to realize, it's too hot to be out here. I cleaned up my stuff but couldn't breathe well enough to bring the bookcase back in the house.
Once I was breathing okay. I took the kids to the pool. It was fun but I felt like someone else should be there. Maybe 2 others or more.
Not doing well today
I couldn't stay awake this morning and let the acid reflux mess with my tummy. I had the same issues with my "take with breakfast" medications. I didn't eat well
What's been going on since I've been sick
Thursday, I still managed to watch big brother 8. Friday Mother watched Tiger while my sister and her live in drove me to the doctor. Once they left then we had a freak out here when the garage door didn't settle right and made some funky noises as it heated up in the sun. It sounded like some one was crashing around in the garage. man, I wouldn't have panicked like did if G-man hadn't heard it too. He was so great handled being in charge in my not so kid safe bedroom.
Saturday the boys understood that I just needed to keep my eyes closed and didn't give me much trouble. My sister watched them the rest of the day though in exchange for some time in the pool.
Sunday, we didn't make it to church. Being fully in charge without any input from me stressed Eddie out too much. I was way too sick to go. I just stayed in bed most of the day.
Monday Eddie cleaned and prepped for my sister's pool party here and his mom called. One of his cousins was killed Sunday night. Debbie's estranged husband knifed her at work then run off. Apparently she was raising her kids and a grandchild so those kids will have to move back to New York to her ailing parents care. Eddie looked it up on line and found a news article called his mom and then his Aunt called. Not the mom, but another aunt. (my mil has 9 siblings) He tells her where he found the article. I found 2 more on Tuesday. I couldn't find a thing about her brother though. In the process of one the conversation Eddie finds out that his other cousin, brother to the deceased has been missing for 2 years. How did that happen?
I realized when we were doing our relatives project a few months back I didn't get near enough information about all of those Aunts and Uncles. We need to get back to that.
